Holy cow, Batman!
It has been well & truly over 12 months since I last posted a blog entry. Oooooooh.
No excuses,...I actually forgot I even HAD a blog.
Well, back in the start of my non-posting, my sister would nag every now & then about having nothing new to read ( :AHEM: Meaning she didnt know EVERY freaking detail of my life, & I'd better get moving to speed her up! haha )
So....whats been happening?
Soooo much!
My kids,- ( I guess I should start with them, riiiight??)
I don't know how it happened, but, they are suddenly, like, BIG PEOPLE.
I mean, they still expect that I do some motherly duties, but, for the most part, if I could teach them to use the washing machine, I reckon we can have them moving out real soon....
Nice aren't I?
I recall a time when I would catch the sob in my throat at the thought of my babies ever leaving me.
Jake, who is now 15, seems to not speak much...just a few "Mmmm" "Nah" "Can I have some money?" tidbits thrown here & there at me, & me, well, shit, I'm just grateful to know he can still speak!
He tells us he's moving out when he's 18. Or maybe 21. He will let us know.
I told him a weeks notice is fine. (haha!)
The girl. *Groan*
Used to be sooooo sweet. Soooo nice.
Well, now....shes a moody little thing. (Genetic?)
Spends alot of time in her room. On MSN. On her mobile. On MY phone. Anywhere but with me...unless I have $ & she knows I would do anything to hang out with her that I would even spend it on her....!
The little boy. Still so super uber cute & spunky.
Also extremely cheeky. To me. I don't like!
BUT, on saying that...I am still the sunshine in his world....he adores me!
(Til he gets like those other 2, anyway...! :P )
And, I think thats about a wrap up from my end for now.
I will try not to let it go for another year between posts!!
Take care, anyone out there!
Wednesday, January 27
Over a year...
Tuesday, November 4
He's fighting!
My last post was pretty emotional...I was pretty emotional, throughout the whole of last week.
We were on on the edge of our seats everytime the home phone or my mobile rang.
Dreading "that call"...
When I finished work on Sunday, I went straight to Bris for visiting time, where I found my stepdad, not too good.
He had been fairly responsive the day prior, talking to my sisters & mum. I kind of expected the same...but he was really exhausted.
He woke after a while, & had a bit of a chat. He is pretty confused still, & his brain, I guess would be trying to process what the hell happened to it!!
So, we went from being warned that he would only last 48 hours, (& apparently that was stretching it...the type of bleed he had, usually only 2% of people survive...the other 98% will die within 24 hours!)....to, a 61 yr old dude who is obviously so not ready to be done here on this earth!
Arrangements are coming to place to move hospitals & begin a fast-track rehabilitation program.
As you can imagine, everyone is feeling more at ease!
He will have good & bad days, & a kind of rollercoaster ride to recovery...but, he fought this hard to stay alive.....he can do it!
Thanks so much to my wonderful friends, & my baby sister, (man, have we had some phone chats in the past week!) your support & love throughout the past week, really kept me going when I felt so down.
Saturday, November 1
You just never know.
....what this little thing called life has in store, huh.
On Tuesday morning, my Mum called to inform me that my stepdad (Denis) had suffered a stroke, with bleeding on his brain, & blood pressure that was unable to be stabilised.
Denis has suffered health scares before, but, he is as strong as an Ox....he is never down for long, & lives his life so fast & hard, you would be shocked to be told he was in his 60's!
I was, when Mum told me how old he was!!
My Mum & Denis got together when I was 13 years old.
I loved him in the beginning...then once I realised they had something happening...OMG, did I give him grief!!
My real dad is a bit of a .....situation.
I am the only one of 5 kids who has anything to do with him.
Denis took us 5 on as his own, & formed a particularly close bond with my brothers & baby sister...(he is the only Dad she has ever known)
The past 4 days have been filled with indescribable sadness....& ... regrets....I regret so so much, not telling him how much he meant to me.
I treated him so coldly, at times, & all he ever did was love me, & want to be there for us, & our Mum.
You know, I still kind of expect that he will pull through this.
His days are a mix of good & bad.
Yesterday, he told mum that he loved her so much, & that she is beautiful, which brought a huge happiness to her heart....the day prior, he was asking who she was...
Mum told him for me that I loved him,( when I couldn't make it back to visit)...& he said, "I know"....
So, for now, he is out of ICU, as there's nothing more that they can do for him.
It has been explained that they will continue to feed him intravenously, & do what they can, but, if his heart stops, they won't revive him.
They think that his organs will start to fail....& here I sit uncontrollably sobbing at the thought that we will never see him as we knew him again....
All we can do is pray, & thats something I kinda gave up on there for a while, but I tell you, I am praying with all my might....miracles happen....lets hope for one....no harm in hoping, huh?
Saturday, October 18
I've been ... TAGGED!
I've been tagged by Sally!
I've not been tagged before, I don't think!
1. Where is your cell phone? In my bag...on SILENT! OOOPS.
2. Where is your significant other? Work.
3. Your hair color? A mix of blondish chocolate foils
4. Your mother? At work.
5. Your father? At his house..probably gardening.
6. Your favorite thing? Happiness
7. Your dream last night? Not sure...can't remember.
8. Your dream/goal? For my children to be happy & successful in their lives.
9. The room your in? Office
10. Your hobby?Reading, professional beach bum... :)
11. Your fear? Something happening to my kids.
12. Where do you want to be in six years? Not paying as much for bloody fuel....um, not sure!
13. Where were you last night? At work
14. What you’re not? Tall
15. One of your wish list items? A Pandora bracelet!
16. Where you grew up? Tweed Coast
17. The last thing you did? Hung washing!
18. What are you wearing? Pink singlet & bikini bottoms...(keep getting in & out of pool!)
19. Your TV? Roary the Racing Car
20. Your pet? Bunny
21. Your computer? Laptop heapa shit!
22. Your mood? Relaxed
23. Missing someone? My mum
24. Your car? Suzuki Grand Vitara XL7
25. Something you’re not wearing? Shoes
26. Favorite store?Tempt & perfume empire
27. Your summer? It was hot, hot, hot
28. Love someone? Mostly lol
29. Your favorite color? Pink
30. When is the last time you laughed? At Jayden...he was watching the Woolies ad where the little girl makes a "jewel" necklace with fruit...he says everytime he sees the ad.."Thats my girl!"
he loves her!!!!
31. Last time you cried? Wednesday....was so sick of the shit in my life!
Im okay now... ;)
Friday, October 10
Another Birthday.
Our precious girl celebrated her 12th birthday on Wednesday.
Each year that passes, I always am amazed at how fast the next one has come around.
It truly does feel like yesterday, that we discovered we were having her!
And here she is, ...so smart, so beautiful, so independent & grown so much.
She is a popular girl among her friends....they report that she is the "caring one" of the group...she will sit out of a game to keep an injured mate company, even if she really likes whats going on!
She is so beautifully natured, she has such a huge heart, which also enables her to be wounded easily...
Her future is so bright...she will be whatever she sets her mind to....then some!....I know it.
As much as I don't want her to grow up too....I am looking forward to her becoming a young adult, & sharing in her life, as she chooses her own path.
I will always be there...ready to share in her excitements, disappointments, triumphs, or just be a shopping buddy!!
No matter how old she gets....she will forever be my baby girl.
Our baby girl, 8 weeks old.
Taken last year.
Cupcakes!!
"The Girls"...pool party on Wednesday!
Mother & Daughter
Saturday, October 4
Clever Little Man
We have a very clever little boy on our hands, with Jayden.
He has a keen interest in numbers, & can recognise any number from 1-10.
Out shopping, was when he first amazed us.
It was before he was 2 years old, & he looked up from the trolley, with eyes wide & said, "Look Mum! Its 4!" as we entered aisle number 4.
I had put that down to memorising them from a television show, Numberjacks, which he is an addict of!
When we got home, we went with it...I was excited to see how much was just recognition.
Well....I gave him a handful of cards, fom 1-10.
Not only did he point out number 6...he turned the card upside down & said, "Now....9!" back the other way again, "Now...6!".... & again, "Now...9!" til he gathered that yes, Mum does get the drift!
Colours & numbers are his thing. He loves to show just how clever he is.
He is the same with colours; can tell you any colour you point at.
He loves counting & painting at the moment.
Wonder what he will be into within the next 12 months?....
My team.
Thinking back to when I was a little girl, & my dad was a keen Manly supporter.
I didn't have a clue what the heck football was about, but from a very early age, would get about singing, "Manly are the best!" when my Dad had his mates around to watch a game.
I recall eating a boiled egg, before an athletics carnival that my Dad had proudly on display, with an emblem of Manly on it.
(It wasn't the same one, but was the spiel my dad used to get me amped before the carnival, I guess! It must have worked too...I was a winner that day!)
And he made sure I supported them throughout my teenage years, when asked who I barracked for, I would mumble "Manly, Dad" and roll my eyes with embarrassment.
At that stage, I don't think they actually won many games.
It was not cool to support them.
As I grew older, my loyalty stayed with my Dads team, even though I had a Bronco nut for a husband & son!
A few weeks ago, Jamie looked at me & said, "Hun, I think Manly might go ok you know!" and, seeing as he has disowned the Broncos after their last disappointing match, I suggested that he adopt Manly.
And so he has!
Last night at work, I was partaking in a conversation regarding football when the subject of Manly arose.
I said, "Ooooh! They're my team!"
The customer said, "Yeah, funny how many Manly supporters are suddenly cropping up"
Well!
Fuck you buddy.
I supported 'em waaay back when I was forced too, so...bite that!
